I'm super sad after I reach IMM. Because I have to get a pass to get in and in order to get the pass I need to buy the album because the pass is in the album. My heart sanked ! I should have go to city square then I can see him ! But at IMM I can't ! It's at the outer side of IMM . Yea, I saw him a index finger size of my finger ! From damn damn far ! I dont know why I felt super sad and I keep nagging till boyf was so pissed off with me. (I'm sorry boy!) Seriously, i think something wrong with me. Mood swing, bad tempered, negative thoughts. Big sighs. & Somehow , I dont feel like carrying on with my current life. I wish I could rewrite my life, wish I could plan everything nicely for my life. I regret for everything now .

This is how I wish my life is:

Grandpa was japanese, Grandma was taiwanese . Both married gave birth to my dad. Dad was taiwanese and marry my mom singaporean ! But ... i want to stay at taiwan! & when the age of 5-8 I start learning piano. Age of 14 I start learning dancing. But all this , is just my thoughts.

I really feel superrrrrrr useless. I can't study , I dont have any talents. I'm short I'm ugly, I'm fat and stupid. But , what to do ? I still have to carry on with my current life. I'm glad that I got a very good boyf that can accept all my shit and so are my friends. You know who you are who made changes in my life. For now , I just hope everything can just go smoothly studies, love work and friends!