First day of holiday , I have already start my night-love habit ! :( I have been sleeping at 3/4 . Not good but my body somehow auto adjust to that timing already! But well , it's holiday so never mind ! As long as I dont do it during school period , IT'S OKAY LAH ! So how's holiday people ? Right now , I have this very special flyers job! I only give flyers to car that insurance gonna expire. No hard work, but the only thing is we have target and it's a night job ! I wanna find another job a fixed job . But can't find any suitable want. You know , I dont mind a hourly pay @ 5 bucks. but importantly , I enjoy , I like. Ps, passerby I dislike being a waitress. Or I dislike serving people. Like those retail shop I need to say : hi welcome, how may I help you ? ..etc. I dont like. I prefer to work at those retail shop like cotton on , or may be donut factory, famous amos. Actually , I love working in special work like .. neoprint shop ? selling clothes ? ..food specially like those shop I have mention just now. but , kinda hard . Waiting for rachel's moon cake de. Oh yah, feel like going back to softie in my lollie. Wondering do they need any part-timer ...

Sighs, you know my heart got so many unexplainable feelings. It's like I hope someone can understand but at the same time I just couldn't express this feeling. I hate this feeling. It's like you know you want something badly. But you just can't have it. I hate it ! Super dislike but what to do. I can't do anything. REGRETTED - when I'm small I didn't tell my mom I want to learn dancing ? Or why did mummy sent me to those singing class ? During secondary school time, my school only got Chinese dance -.- It's so shit that I'm 18 years old now. I feel old . & I haven done anything special yet . failure uh ?! Life is soooooo shit for me. I wish I could stand strong always. But I always fall . & I didnt manage to get up is just that I choose to smile so that I can forget those pain. But I know , I never can be happy and live simple like a baby .