★ Freedom
In Case you people don't know, I'm 20 this year. & I haven really manage to get my own freedom. Okay, yes thou most of the time I act like I'm 16 because in my mind all I want is to enjoy life & play. But seriously, I don't know understand what's a big fuss to my parents giving me freedom? Yes, they are worry about me. But then again, I am 20 already right?!
PARENTS; want us to be like adult yet treat us like kids!
Yes, they keep saying im not stable. Still kiddy in mind wanting to play. Not knowing what is important. Don't listen to them. Don't want to study.etc etc etc!
I AM REALLY GOING INSANE STAYING AT THIS HOUSE!!!
1. I am not stable: why? Because they always sees me as kid of course they won't take me as a adult?!
2.Not knowing what is important- because I still can't get a full time job. Is not I don't want to get?! Doesn't Mean I want this job I will definitely get?!
3. Always not listening to them: just because I don't want to study? Just because I always talk back to them(to stand firm on my thinking/decision) just because I don't wanna find a job! *rolled eyes*
4. No intention to further my studies!- I know studying is not my cup of tea so why do I have to force myself to do something I have no confidence in? Why do I wanna waste my parent's hard earn money when I know that I won't be doing good in my exams & all?
WHY CAN'T THEY UNDERSTAND ME! I WANNA CRY SO BADLY! IM LIKE A BIRD WANTING TO FLY OUT OF MY CAGE SO BADLY! I DON'T EVEN HAVE MY OWN ROOM AT THE AGE OF 20!!!! Yes!!! Even I tried telling my dad to just remove the old wardrobe & cabinets. & I will get those furniture with my own money! ALSO CANNOT?! & dad ask me where do I get money? He always see my bank statement always zero. Questioning me where do I have my savings?! I replied: I have! I worked! naturally I have my own savings! Where? Where you put? Or you borrow money from from one else?! SERIOUSLY?! IN YOUR EYES IM THAT BAD?!!!! I'm just a bastard kid right?!!!
Dying to go overseas with my Friends. Tell them the truth they don't believe. Why every time when I'm nice they don't appreciate?! Then make me lie to them after they know I lied to them then blame me for not giving them much trust to believe me?! WTF?! You force me to things this way? IF IN THE FIRST PLACE YOU AGREE WHY DO WE HAVE TO GO THRU SO MANY THINGS?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!