Dang! After 4 years and I'm back here again......
Why so... because it suddenly struck me last night that I should restart blogging penning down my life, thoughts and feeling on this space that no one knows that still exist. (LOL)
Turning 30 this year was something surreal... I've never thought that this age will come by so soon... Life in 20s was pretty amazing! I actually enjoyed and no regrets at all. The people who I met, became close with then drifted apart. Or those who turned into my inner circle of friend. Everyone made an impact in my 20s! The fun, stress, travelling ... those were incredible!
I guess the main reason of updating this space of mine other then being able to look back when am older.. I am also living at life that is unpredictable. To some 30 maybe young but others think that you'll need to have certain achievement.. Most of us think that we have time.. we strive, work hard and earn as much as we can so we can lead a better future. But... do we really have time? How much time do one has? No one knows. Things happen and next moment you'll not be able to live the life you want.
So... in the event shit happens, I guess this is a good space for my love ones to read. Which obviously, I can also pen down via a dairy but am lazy to write!
Reading back at my last post.. funny how those thoughts were still relevant to me! Guess my view towards life has not change a single bit!
How am I doing? Well, I left the airport! My very first full time job after working for almost 10 years! I spend the last 5 months slacking, enjoying life being a jobless. & tmrw, I'm starting my new job! Working with Rachel Ong whom I've known for 13 years!!!! How am feeling? Nervous, as usual having anxiety! Am always having this mini breakdown! One thing I'm lack of and really need to improve is to have self confident and be stronger to face different challenges. I guess the reason of me having these feeling because of my childhood. When am younger I used to myself very open, outspoken. However, it was when I overheard that my cousin started saying that am too outspoken, spoiled and tend to disregard people's feelings. Thats where I learned to tone down and consistently remind myself not to speak before knowing the people. Always think thrice before talking. Oh well, something I really need to work on and change this mindset!
Back to life.. I'm still struggling to find my purpose in life. What am I here for? What is my impact this life? How can I contribute? Everyone around me seems to find their path in life. People get married, have a life goal. Knows what to pursue.
& here is me.. still lost. I know very well what's my passion. Travel full time and thats something I really want since having my own income. Have I done something? yeah.. for the past 10 years I've been travelling. Each year travelled to at least 3- 4 times. Visiting a new country. But is that enough? Can I do better? I wish I could and the first step I did was applied for Working Holiday Visa for New Zealand & it was approved!!! Excited?! Hell yeah! Can't wait? Hell yeah! But.. have I decided to go and take a gap year? Something for me to really think it through..
