Its the first day of 2023.....
Not much to list down my resolution though I guess it's good as it keeps you focus on your goal. However, my resolution and goals has never change. It's always the usual, simple.
1. Be happy
2. Family, friends healthy
3. Find my own path and do the things I love
Easy but not so. Maybe some will say it is not specific. Because... what is be happy? How do you define happy? Right here just overthinking again. Asking all these questions.
Today... I spent my time with fam having lunch, did some work for Possible Travel and own work. I really do enjoy creating social media post. Since I was 17, I'm always so into this but had never really purse this.
Then spend the rest of the afternoon with Habibi. We ended the night not very well.. its the same topic that has be hovering us since forever. Of where do we stand and what's next. I really wish that I could have some light/guidance.
My mom could never accept him. Outsider thinks it's easy.. "oh you know, after while your parents will accept." "They love you, they will accept it."
uh yeah, jokes on you because it's been 15 years and my mom just couldnt. The past years I've tried. But whenever I start talking.. she just ignore and disregard me as if i'm transparent. She will then ignore me for days until she just decide to talk to me as if nothing happen. There is no way, I can pass the talking stage or share anything.
God, this is so tough! Both are the people I love but things are not that straightforward. Sometimes I just wanna leave and start a brand new life with habibi. But the thoughts of leaving my parents not being able to talk to them hurts. But what can I do?? I can't leave him too...
The question is.. do I live my life like how I want or be the filial piety daughter live the way my parents want? 😭