{Monday, December 4, 2023} 6:31 PM

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Lovely huge bouquet of flowers from Bestie :)

Following up on my last post, damn! it's so depressing. Which it's truly was as things werent looking good. Things werent going the way I want it to be. But guess what, things took a turn & yes I'm still in Auckland with a job! YAYYYYYY~ It was a hard time for the month of sept and early October. However, mid of October just where I set my own timeline if things are not looking good I will return to Sg.. & I guess God heard me, heard my prayers and decided to fuilfil my wish. I got a Interview, which lead to confirming the job. Went for pre-employment checks and successfully started my Summer Job on 6 Nov! It's been almost a month in this job and I would rate it 6/10. Not the best but not too bad. Colleagues are generally nice just 2 annoying ones which eh.. you can't escape. They are literally everywhere. Working hours are not too bad either. Each shift is about 8 hours and as long I get to work 4 days a week, I would be able to pay my rent, buy groceries and save up! Really thankful and blessed that God has grant my wish and placed all the nice and lovely people in my life during this period. Living aboard is not easy specially when ya alone. I'm so glad to cross path with these people during this part of my life. Thank you for making a difference and showing kindess to me. That's for the work update and truly truly grateful that I'm ending 2023 that way I wanted it too. As for love life, things are just going down hill. I'm just too tired and numb with whatever it's going on. Is what I'm doing making things better? definately no. I've said I want, express my feelings but if the other party is not responding or making efforts I don't see why I should to. Why do I wanna fight this battle alone? This is the time I need to figure it out what I want and if there is any future. Else we wil be just wasting more time when alot of time has been lost. May god guide me and show some obvious signs to me. I'm just heartbroken and yeah no words to even express this pain.